I'm as Patient as I Must Be
This is because I have no choice but to be patient. People keep saying things like, "It must be killing you that you can't surf." No, it really isn't. When you do some damage to yourself, your focus must be to heal. It certainly wouldn't be fun to surf in pain. And it wouldn't do me any good to try to rush the healing process.
So, I saw The Shit on Monday. He's a funny one, that doctor. After surgery, he made it clear that I wasn't to put any weight on the foot. What did he do when he came into the room for the last appointment? He took a good hard look at the bottom of my boot; he wanted to make sure I hadn't been walking on it. That just made me laugh. He must deal with patients who look him in the face and lie. I am not one of those people. You tell me not to walk on it, I won't walk on it. Period.
He took the boot off in order to remove the dressing he'd put on after the operation. I got pictures of the ankle, ostensibly to put on the blog. But I decided not to post them. They are a bit gruesome. They don't bother me. When I had the knee replaced, I took a picture of my leg while the staples were still in—all 33 of them. I eventually decided not to post that picture as I figured it would be a bit too much for some folks. The ankle doesn't look half as bad as the knee did. However, it's still a bit much. You can all thank me later.
The Shit said I'm to come back next week for an xray. If the joint looks good, he will allow me to start putting weight on it. After this last appointment, he's told me I no longer have to keep the foot up all the time. I'm now allowed to rest it on the ground while I'm seated. And if that doesn't hurt, I can rest it on the ground while I'm standing.
Yes, I'm still on crutches. I haven't fallen yet. I came very close today. I managed to bonk the ankle a bit. I worried that I'd done some damage. All I did, as it turns out, was scare myself to death.
Surf's up today. I saw it with my own two eyes. I would not have braved it on a board. I would have paddled out into that stuff on a mat. I could see how the mat would have drawn some pretty good lines on those that weren't closing out.
I miss my mats. All three of them. I think my 4GFs miss me too.